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The Secret Side of a Student

Before I came to university, I saw it as this one big party. Everyone had said how uni was the best time of their lives and all my friends who were already at university seemed to be having the time of their lives from what I saw over social media. I was getting up for work everyday whilst they got to lie in until 12pm, I was sitting at home most nights whilst they dressed up and went clubbing or had fun nights in with all their friends.

I couldn’t wait to start university. However, it turns out it’s not all it was cracked up to be.

I don’t think I am completely alone when I say university isn’t as wild and as fun as everyone tries to portray it to be. I have spent a lot of nights miserable in my dingy little halls of residence room, wishing I was joining in the fun that everybody else seemed to be having. Don’t get me wrong, I have had some good nights out, but I didn’t build the friendships I hoped I would. Back at home, everyone kind of felt like acquaintances, my friends here at uni also still do. They even make my friends at home feel like long term, deep down friends – at least acquaintances at home were familiar with me and I them.

Living alone is nice, but I do miss my mom and the comfort of home a lot. I am a very independent person and not the type of person who has grown accustomed to some fancy life back home, I did not even think I would miss home at all, but I do. It’s not even just the house and my mom I miss; I am one of the unfortunate ones who – despite being in a flat with eleven other people – doesn’t have a close bond with all their halls mates, so I miss even just company and talking to people where I live. It’s so isolating. Cooking in the kitchen is lonely and even when someone else is too, it’s just awkward. Everywhere is grubby, which was expected of student living, but it’s not exactly home when you don’t even want to sit on the toilet seat because of the germs and dirt…

I think maybe I am just unlucky, that’s all university experiences ever are: luck of the draw. Yes I have friends, but there always feels like there’s some sort of barrier in the way. Even when I do have free time (which is a ridiculous amount sometimes, who thought I’d be wanting more lectures to fill up my lonely time?) it’s hard to find a time when everyone else is free too, or when anyone else actually wants to do something. It’s not that I don’t gel with the people I’ve met, but more I just don’t feel I fit in with people here. Then again, I never feel like I fit in anywhere.

People like me may have come to university in a city they love thinking that this would finally be their calling, their place to be, where everything would finally start falling into place. It has turned out to be the exact opposite, I don’t think I am alone in saying I have never felt more lost or dropped in the deep end than I do now. Sometimes I feel I don’t belong here, but I need my degree and I love the city, but it’s not a comfortable feeling when you don’t feel like you belong or when the path you’ve chosen doesn’t sit right with you.

Some say they met their closest friends after the first term, some say second year is much better as living in a house with your friends is much more comforting than halls of residence when you don’t click with everyone. I guess we’ll see but all I am saying is don’t believe everything you hear before you’ve tried it out.

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Relationships and Social Media

I can’t help but feel that social networking sites/apps, e.g Facebook, Snapchat, Instagram, are becoming more and more harmful in many ways, one of these ways being the effect it has on relationships.

If a couple have these social networking apps – which a majority do – I believe they can cause more problems and stresses to a relationship. I have multiple times heard girls say such things as “he liked another girls photo [on Facebook]” referring to their boyfriends or male interests and sentences like these sound so trivial, and maybe they are, however I’m sure such things can spark all sorts of paranoia for those in a relationship.

It’s a well known fact that social media users ‘stalk’ others on the sites (if you deny this, there’s a 98% chance you’re lying) and I’m pretty sure the majority do this to their other half. We concern ourselves with who’s photos they’ve ‘liked’, which tweets they’ve favourited, who they now follow on Instagram, why they’re on Facebook but haven’t answered your text etc. I even know of people who have mentioned twitter in arguments!

There’s a chance that what I have discussed above is majorly down to a persons paranoia or insecurities, or if a person feels this way about social media and their partner then maybe the relationship is not a healthy one. However, I┬ádo think that our ever increasing obsession with social networking is becoming too intrusive in some relationships, even if that just includes a persons fixation with their phone and being generally unsociable, and I do fear for the future of relationships and can’t help but feel this is only the beginning for relationships tiffs caused by social media.